Monday, June 17, 2013
Blogging As A Tool
Hello, sweetums. I know, I know. It's been another long while. But while I HAVE been really busy, I am going to be really honest with you guys. I just don't wanna blog anymore. I mean, not really. I'm really struggling with creativity and business in general right now and especially with blogging.
And I was thinking "I wish blogging was as easy and/or as fun as sharing things on instagram and twitter are." Then I realized that that is probably the silliest thing I've ever thought. Why shouldn't blogging be fun, easy, and quick? Why do I feel like I have to struggle to come up with content? Especially when I look at my twitter or my instagram or heck, even just my photos on my phone. A lot goes on in our life: good, bad, funny, hilarious, embarrassing, moving, thrilling, emotional. And when you really stop to think about it, how much of that do we post quickly in outlets like Facebook or twitter, but never on our blogs? I mean, do you guys even know what my job(s) are outside of a small business owner?
I currently work full time at my school's community education outreach for children. I'm the summer camp assistant and office assistant. I manage a group of high school interns & run around after kids aging from 5-10 & then in the other group 11-13. I go into work at 8:30 am & leave around 7:30 pm; Monday through Friday.
And I could (and probably will) talk to you guys for DAYS about these kids. Every day is something new and there is never a dull moment. But you guys would have no idea about any of that. Why? Because there's this filter between "real life" and "blog life".
So over the past two weeks, I've been reading articles and other blog posts and thinking about why blogging made me miserable. Because I like YOU... but blogging itself, has become a chore that I dread.
And what I've realized is that I was using blogging as a tool. A strict routine, specific topics, withheld personality, and following these predetermined guidelines… well, all of that sucked the fun right out of it. I don't want another tool. I want an outlet. I want a playground. I want to tell you guys about how obsessed I am with Once Upon a Time right now & how I watch reruns of Ancient Aliens so frequently I know all the words to some of the episodes. Because I love aliens and I just really, really want to believe.
And I think what ModCloth did with their blog really is just brilliant. It's no longer their "blog" but their "story." And to me, that's it exactly. That's gold.
I want to play and draw pictures and tell stories and build this relationship with you that makes this fun again. I want to tell you about my crappy day that was only made bearable by the most adorable little girls at my work & my cat. I want to make this real life. Not a diary, of course, but an open and developing and real dialogue and relationship with my blog and me and you guys.
Basically, I'm just really ready to have fun and make this an outlet for creativity again and not worry about stats and hits and numbers and if this is helping properly promote, blah blah blah. But enough of all that, I think. For now, I want us to start over. Hi, I'm Zie and I like crafts, office supplies, my cat & aliens. Nice to meet you. <3