Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Fighting Back: Three Things to Help with Depression
I SUFFER FROM SEVERE CLINICAL DEPRESSION, PTSD AND ANXIETY. As I'm writing this, its 5am and I've today for the first time in months felt ok. We've talked a bit in the past about depression (one, two) and the like but I think it's something that warrants a revisit. Especially when it's something so many of us struggle with. Mental illness of any sort isn't something to be swept under the rug and ignored, yet for the most part that's what happens.
I'm not saying let's talk about it daily or anything like that but sometimes, it helps to know someone else out there is going through the same struggle as you.
Since this post back in February, I had gotten so much better. My stress levels had gone down, my creativity was up, I was doing ok. But for the past month (coinciding with school starting back up, I'll note), I've been struggling again. The past week, especially this weekend, had been hell.
In short: I had a bit of a breakdown. I spent days in bed, ignoring all responsibility, just crying. I couldn't be around most people and I just wanted to sleep.
I have no idea how long I would have let this continue on or even if it could have gotten worse, but today, I'm ok. And in my new-day-contentedness, in hopes of helping someone else and as a future reference for myself, I'm making a list of a few things that helped me fight back:
I called my mother. My mother has been and always will be the number one person that pushes me and gets me through everything. She's my lifeline far more often then she should be and I thank God, Glitter, and all things wonderful every day that I that I get such an awesome mom.
To the point: She told me to get my ass out of bed, go to the doctor and take care of myself.
Then I called boyfriend and best squirrelfriend. She picked me up and took me to the doctor; he spent the weekend with me, making me tea, watching House Hunters International (that's kind of our favorite show) and holding me when I cried. Call someone.
IF YOU NEED HELP, ASK. QUIT BEING A STUBBORN ASS.
I've been pretty clear my entire life that I'm not a fan of medication, especially the kinds that change or alter you in anyway. But severe depression is a chemical imbalance in your brain and anxiety can be crippling. You don't have to take the medication forever and it doesn't make you a different or somehow lesser person. You just need a little help. So quit being a proud, stubborn ass and ask for help if you need it. (100% talking to myself here, can you tell?)
REST, EAT, SLEEP, REPEAT
Give your body, your soul, your mind some time off. Watch movies or tv, read books, go on walks with your partner or your friend. Do something peaceful and let the stress go. Eat good food. I'm talking healthy and good for your physical body, but also, go eat some comfort food, some yummy food. Boyfriend brought me cheese sticks and a milkshake on my worst day and I can't even begin to tell you how much that helped and meant to me.
Let yourself sleep. Over the past few days, I've slept more then I've been awake. That's just part of the healing process. And understand that it takes time, so rest, eat, sleep, repeat.
Everyone goes through depression, anxiety, etc. differently. But I'm pretty sure these couple things are universal. Surround yourself with love and support. Give yourself the rest, attention and help that you need. And know that most importantly you are not alone, you absolutely can do this, and we will all be ok.
From the bottom of my heart, I love you.